Jerry Lansdowne – I’m not me anymore – an Alzheimer’s song…

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Jerry Lansdowne was once a songwriter for Johnny Cash, and he now writes a song in honor of the memory of his mother who suffered from Alzheimer’s disease. They lyrics of the song “I’m Not Me Anymore” tell the story of Alzheimer’s disease through that of the sufferer. Losing their memories, relationships is the haunting reality of this disease that many have to face.

I’m breaking
I can feel it inside
Something’s taking over my mind
Causing page after page of memories to fade
Into nothing
I’m losing more of me everyday
It’s confusing
I feel lost and betrayed
As places and things faces and names
Fade into nothing

I’m not me anymore
Not who I used to be, anymore
There’s a thief running loose in my head
A thief who won’t rest till I’m dead
Stealing my mind one cell at a time
Till I’m nothing

I hate this
I can’t run, I can’t fight
I can’t take this
I feel buried alive
I don’t know who I am
Just a shell of some man
Left with nothing

I’m not me anymore
Not who I used to be, anymore
There’s a thief running loose in my head
A thief who won’t rest till I’m dead
Stealing my mind one cell at a time
Till I’m nothing
Just nothing
Nothing

See also: Alzheimer’s songs